wooo!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! i decided that lj really really sucks so ive moved by to my old blogger.

thechampishere-.blogspot.com

WOOOO

cya!
dylan

i dunno how things could just go so gravely wrong. why? suddenly, the world just collapses. 

and its good fridayy. 

amidst all the wasted tears, have i left something behind? did i forget something? 

everything was alright. it was...

ehh. wait. could it be that...

this might be a wild guess. but its worth a shot. =)

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me 


you can help by not being mean. ya.

dylan

not bad. haha. i went to sleep just now. and now im mugging. waa. got h3 math test on wednesday. must really mug like a man. i shouldnt train later on. must keep to my word. later flunk h3 then GGXX. anyway, i was mugging at macs then suddenly they play Sclub for some reason. and i like this song!

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
Amd tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no 

ahh lol. i just fill like bolding the whole song. LOL. songs are unfalsifiable. tts why everyone can relate to them. 

BLEHX. its like 2 hours before going to school.. >< i m sure i blog at this time. 

dylan

first of all, happy birthday ongnardo! =)

ahh. haha. todays archery training was like some man.. haha. im tired.. and alittle sad. for some reason. actually. for no reason. okay. actually for no good reason. 

ahh.. i m beginning to feel that emotions are merely just chemical reactions that we cant avoid.. ok.. to an extent maybe.. i know abt CONTROLLING EMOTIONS definitely. but sometimes.. SOMETIMES, its impossible to hide a tear.

ahh gotta focus on workk. 

dylan the man.

haha. went to watch 300 with archers todayy =) then after that went to play pool and eat dinner at food republic and had some meeting LOL. not bad. interesting and fun dayy. 

300 some man show la. its nice special effects la. haha. 

anyway, and pooling at lucky plaza rox too.. =) pooling the man la. 

and i realized that my msn multitasking and managing convos kinda sucks noww. but yea. i apologize. just tt. i just dun wanna get too distracted by msn and pwn my workk.

the truth abt friendships.
have u watched movies or shows when a persons only friend dies or leaves the person and the person feels very sad and alone? hmm. yupp. i agree that really sucks and its super demoralizing. i guess, u ll fill alone more than ever after that. esp if ur the kinda individual who is perhaps introverted and doesnt really feel easy talking to ppl hes not so close to.

hmm. being over-reliant on a single friendship can be a dangerous thing if ur friendship is not built on firm enough grounds. and if it collapses, then perhaps, therell be no true friends left for u. 

ive tried to overcome this danger by always widening my own social circle. but then i realize that the truth is. life doesnt work that way too. =(

i realize that u cant enjoy the fulfillment of a friendship without having the commitment for it ( UNLESS THERE IS A GREAT AMOUNT of trust) but u see. this huge amount of trust comes abt from (most of the time) commitment in the past. which is essentially commitment too. [if u understand this, good for u XP]

anyway, i think one thing people have GOTTA REALIZE is : when u get to know and have more friends (or acquaintances to put it more accurately) YOUR SPECIAL FRIENDS OF THE PAST DO NOT [TO PUT IT BLUNTLY] LOSE THEIR VALUE. in fact, it is quite the contrary. 

IN FACT, THE MORE PPL I GET TO KNOW, THE MORE I TREASURE THE PEOPLE, WHO ARE DEAR TO ME. cos its only when u know more ppl, that u realize how special ur close friends are. how much things they can offer that no one else can. yes. =)

i guess, there was a point in time when we used to like to hang out in cliques. and like hardly socialize beyond our social circles. but at that time, i didnt really treasure some friendships. cos i thought i could easily make them somewhere else. someplace else. 

but now i know better. =)

hi all. THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIENDS. if ur not sure if im referring to u, lemme tell u that I AM. haha. i suck at showing gratitude, so im probably more thankful for ur friendship then u think i am. =)

=)
dylan

AHH. that song is playing again.. BLEHH.. u know its funny how songs can really bring back the memories. thats like frames of memories. flashbacks. tt means somethingg. and u feel kinda sad cos u miss that memory but yet. but when its over.. u wanna play it again. cos theres a part of u that enjoys rmbing..

sometimes, i wonder whether. its really good to forget the memories. cos isnt it the past that defines who u are now?
 
blehx.. its not good to be too extroverted la. too many friends = no true friends. sighh. 

arghh i shouldnt be unhappy. or anything. COME ON. i realize i got nothing to complain. family, class, studies, ccas, friends, and i even have --- blehx. so many things. =) must count my blessings man..  anyway, i laughed at this :

. dylan- eh my hand SPOIL! the last two fingers cannot control properly.. says (12:06 AM):

what u doingg?

QUEENBEEjiawen; haha you are the best boyfriend? LOL XD says (12:06 AM):

haha reading your blog! XD

QUEENBEEjiawen; haha you are the best boyfriend? LOL XD says (12:06 AM):

haha

. dylan- eh my hand SPOIL! the last two fingers cannot control properly.. says (12:10 AM):

LOL!

. dylan- eh my hand SPOIL! the last two fingers cannot control properly.. says (12:10 AM):

WOOO haha.

. dylan- eh my hand SPOIL! the last two fingers cannot control properly.. says (12:10 AM):

not badd.

. dylan- eh my hand SPOIL! the last two fingers cannot control properly.. says (12:10 AM):

do u find my blog cheemm..

QUEENBEEjiawen; haha you are the best boyfriend? LOL XD says (12:11 AM):

haha lol i just read the part when you said u dunno who reads your blog XD

QUEENBEEjiawen; haha you are the best boyfriend? LOL XD says (12:11 AM):

haha i do!

QUEENBEEjiawen; haha you are the best boyfriend? LOL XD says (12:11 AM):

eh not really sometimes u kind of just reflect a lot

QUEENBEEjiawen; haha you are the best boyfriend? LOL XD says (12:11 AM):

sometimes u just went crazy XD

QUEENBEEjiawen; haha you are the best boyfriend? LOL XD says (12:11 AM):

haha

. dylan- eh my hand SPOIL! the last two fingers cannot control properly.. says (12:12 AM):

XP

. dylan- eh my hand SPOIL! the last two fingers cannot control properly.. says (12:12 AM):

like which entryy?

QUEENBEEjiawen; haha you are the best boyfriend? LOL XD says (12:12 AM):

the pangsai one XD

 

. dylan- eh my hand SPOIL! the last two fingers cannot control properly.. says (12:12 AM):

haha CRAZY!

haha. im sure just go crazyyy.. 

ytd.. after common test. had dg [clydia, bel, mable and andre who the moment he came we left. LOL ] the n batch outing. lan. which i got owned.. >< haha. we went to opp paradiz. forgot the name of that place.. haha. i think the swat whatever game quite fun jsut tt we keep getting owned cos chin nam keep killing hostages haha.

and then class outing to watch mr beann went to plaza sing to eat pastaman.. haha. then watch lor. alot of ppl .the nqueue up like man . okay la. >< LOL.quite funn. after common testtt. GOod breakk.. 

WOOOO!
dylan

ytd, i was having my own personal time at macs having breakfast and when i was ordering food, i suddenly heard some woman calling 'dylan' loudly. so i looked to check who it was and was wondering how she knew me. then it turned out to be that she was calling her like kindergarten son. (who of course had the same name as me) LOL.

maybe its cos my name is still relatively uncommon (although its getting more common now). but it kinda felt abit weirdd..  to think that my name refers to someone else to another person. 

(i realize ongnardo will nv have this problem LOL!)

then i thought back on those times when my parents brought me to that very same macs (im referring to braddell macs here.) to have breakfast. and i was running aroundd being naughty and my parents had to shout for me to come backk. 

but now that macs brings new memories. i rmb watching world cup there. i rmb the mugging sessions. i rmb the times after school when we went there. 

and it led me to wonder whether or not. in say a decade from now, whether that boy will be at the same macs living my life. eating macs before school. mugging there. watching the 2018 world cup (in which singapore will still not qualify. LOL) 

for all u know, maybe 10 years ago, when my parents called for me to stop running about at braddell macs, someone else with my name who had came to eat breakfast before his maths common test 1 too overheard it and thought that my parents were referring to him?

but then again, maybe the woman yesterday was ACTUALLY referring to me, ie, the 'me' ten years ago. =) which leads me to think :

are we really that different? 10 years ago, i went to the coffeeshops in the morning with my parents and the patrons there were mainly old men. today, i went to eat at the coffeeshop again. and the majority were still old men. and 10 years from now, itll still be old men. 

the point is. who the young men and who the old men are change. but their roles and their experiences hardly differ. the 4th dimension. time. its perhaps the only component we cant change. yes we can move left right up down, but we move faster or slower in time. 

sigh. it just happens to me alot. when someone is sharing an experience with me and then i ask myself, 'havent i gone through this before?' and then if the person asks me what he/she should do, ill always think 'what would i have done if i could go back to that point in my life?'

and then, there are ppl who angst and say 'i just flunked my tests. im gonna get owned by my parents. u dunno how i feel.' Sometimes i just think to myself 'i dunno how u feel? really?'

do u really think i have always been where i am now? OF COURSE i had to go through some things. we all started with 0 experience and then theres a process of GETTING THERE (like a direction vector. LOL. sorry couldnt help it. im still thinking abt maths)

but of course, the path of life is mroe than just a single direction. theres elements of choice. but come on. we're all living in a similar environment in singapore can ours experiences really differ by THAT much? for most of us, (thus far), its school, exams, problems with schoolwork, problems with teachers, with friends, with parents, with expectations, with friendships, with relationships, with self-esteem... blablabla. there definitely ARE a LARGE number of similarities. 

sometimes, things happen so predictably. it really makes the line 'HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF' make even more sense. personally, ive come to my own conclusion and i know some ppl might disagree. but i think that EVERYONE IS EVERYONE ELSE AT SOME POINT IN TIME. 

i could have looked in the mirror 10 years ago and seen the little boy i saw at macs yesterday. so who has MY reflection in their mirror TODAY?

=)
dylan

LOL. i thought of something just now when i was doing BIG BUSINESS.


if shit happens,
does that make pangsai happening? LOL

haha. sorry for the crudeness. but i thought id like to share the pun. 


XP wooo!
dylan (anyway, im feeling better today liao! WOOOOOO!) 


[and chatlogss are evilll. they make u read non-stopp. >< which might result in angst or extreme highness. depends on which i read...HAHA.]

the truth is cts make me tired and demoralized and make me feel crappy abt myself. and stressed. 
 
WAKE UP little soldier u gotta keep marching on. 
under the sun or in the rain,
you just gotta keep marching on. 

forget the pain.. 
theres more to gain 
if u just keep marching on. 

blehhx. i gotta remind myself of the little things that i have.. and treasure them.. before they too come to pass. 



AHHHHH... i cant even expect teachers to not humiliate me. 

forgive me. 
im tired.
dylan

haha. surprisingly i feel much better after typing that out. maybe i just want to blurt it all out.. BLEHx..